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04 October 2007 @ 02:47 pm
I'm in a weird place today.. plus my body is freakin tired! I didnt crawl out of bed til 10am .. I only had to be in school to observe on monday and wed. I've already started having negative thoughts about teaching.. and I think it's only because Im mentally not prepared to go back to teaching after 2 years of performing/grad school. It's not that I don't like to teach, I actually do.. but I need to keep reminding myself that this job is only a sub position.. its not permanent.. and I'm not backsliding on my performance skills. I think I just freak out that If I take this job, I'll never get anywhere as a performer.. I need to snap out of this funk!

Positives: I get PAID really well... I'll get Health Insurance after a month, Im using my music skills and degrees, I'm done by 2:30 every day.. It will be minimum planning after a month or so (gotta get used to it).. its not going to be FOREVER.. I get holidays and breaks.. I can practice afterschool in my classroom...and even teach lessons if I want

NEGATIVES: I have to get up at 6:15am, there will be some classes that have disciplin issues, like the 12-1 class..

I can't think of any real negatives... just goes to show that I need to get over myself and be happy that I have a job in my FIELD

Need to work on positive thinking again.. i've been in a weird funk the past few days...

Recital is in 8 days.. Gotta keep positive about it and not be bored with it!
serabelleserabelle on October 4th, 2007 08:45 pm (UTC)
thanks for your encouragement.. i really appreciate it. good luck with your recital, i'm sure it'll be awesome.

as for the 12-1 class.. show no fear. or mercy.